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almost done with school.  keyword there: almost.   i’m not too stressed about finals, but i definitely wanna blow this semester out of the water.  phys 2 will probably be the hardest even though it’s not comprehensive.  i really wanna ace that exam, and shit, i’m gonna do it.  

but i digress, i don’t want to bore you with school nonsense.  let’s talk about my lack of funds.  i am poor, and along with being poor and i’ve been on the ramen diet.  luckily justin has invited me over to his place and fed me.  i am much obliged to justarooni.  hopefully with this new booksxchange job i picked up, i can make some money.  i need to pay my rent first, but if i get some extra cash, i’m buying some real groceries.  man, sucks being poor.  but since i have such a low calorie intake now, i’ve been losing weight.  slowly but surely.  probably not the best way to go, but shit there’s nothing i can do about it.

nba playoffs have started.  glad the mavs won game 1 against the spurs.  such a great rivalry.  i just hope that this is finally the year they win the championship.  i love the mavs, but they always seem to find a way to disappoint me.  blah.  whatevs.  i am boring and no one cares about basketball except for me in this town.

empty sighs and wine

i recently discovered that craig owens has a side project with some other fabulous musicians.  silly me just found out about it yesterday, but lucky me was able to download the new ep.  and it’s scrumptious.  is anyone cares, it’s isles and glaciers.  good album, i’m really liking it so far.  

on another note, i’m ready for this semester to be over.  i know it’s only down to a month, but i’m just ready for the summer to be here.  this summer i’m only taking one class, so that i can keep my schedule open for a job.  i can’t believe i have to go back to working.  it was nice not having to worry about waking up on time, or escaping the stress that usually comes along with working.  oh well, i’m gonna be working for the rest of my life, might as well get used to it.  

my first exam of the week is done with.  hope i did as well as i think.  that’s something i strongly dislike.  when you think you did killer on am exam and then when you get it back turns out you were short of your expectations.  probably one of the worst feelings i can think of.

i have half an hr till classes starts back up so i figured might as well kill sometime on here.  it’s been a while since i’ve written anything.  life is ok, kinda sick of people, sick of long distance phone calls.  for once i wish things could just be on my side.

back to the grind

second day working out.  i feel great.  i forget how much i enjoy to run.  i owe most of my motivation to joe.  he says i look fine the way i am, but i wanna look better.  i’ve been dividing my food into smaller portions, taking it with me to school so i can eat every 2-3 hours.  i feel more responsible now for some reason.  it’s funny, right before class, i’ll go out in the kitchen, make a sandwich, cut it up and put it in a little sandwich bag, with some doritos and i’m all set.  not to mention i quit drinking soda more than 2 weeks ago.  i noticed my body feeling better without the caffeine.

so i enjoy physics a lot more now.  reason being, we’re starting to go over material that i’m gonna be doing in the future (hopefully).  today we covered resistors and resistivity.  so interesting!  the most mind blowing part was when we calculated the velocity drift of a group of electrons within a copper wire.  it takes 3.17 yrs for a group of electrons within the copper wire we came up with to move 2.38 meters.  dfjsfbajshebf w;usahe983y921y.  if you’re mind didn’t just explode it should have.

i love math and science.

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finals week.  it’s raining.  mavs fails.  lunia rules.  i have an amazing bf.

this is so hard.

i wish i knew the right thing to do.

should i just let him be free and do as he pleases?

or should i still pursue, in hopes that he matures?

he asks me not to give up on him yet, but yet i feel that at times he neglects the things i’ve asked him not to do.

this is so fuckin hard.

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i might not be fond of tallahassee, but i love going there.  we all know why.  see there is a love and hate relationship going on here with tally.  i love it cause it has joe in it.  he goes to school, he’s got a place to stay, and he’s doing well.  but i hate it cause it has joe.  fuck i hate having to come back home after spending a wonderful weekend with him.  i try my best not to be *cough*emo*cough* but i feel so fuckin miserable when i’m not around him.

yesterday itself was hard enough.  after class, spending the evening with Tango aka my lovebug, i found myself going back home to nothing.  i hate that feeling.  did homework to pass the time, watched some star trek (tng), and just stared at my wall.  i hate to say it but the distance is definitely getting to me.  but like i told joe, i’d rather miss him, than have nothing to miss at all.

oh yeah, vday weekend, we made cupcakes… and love.